I operated on a freaking legend spine today, and it was terrifying, exhilarating and imperfect. Mostly terrifying because she's not just a legend, but she matters so much to so many people that I love. Most of my life I have been chasing the kind of high that I feel right now. I gave a surgeon back her hands today. I gave a husband his wife, a son his mother. And I am so incredibly grateful to be sober, to be present enough to have felt every terrifying, exhilarating, imperfect moment.

Amelia